A Ripple of Sadness

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , on November 25, 2009 by yammerman

I wrote this in response to the death of  Amanda Glover, a friend who amongest a group in Lampeter and Brighton helped make me the person I am today. I’ve also posted some  pictures which hardly do justice to the way “Mandy”  lit up the world

A Ripple of Sadness

Sadness from its centre spreads like a ripple
Losing its power but breaking the surface.
Absence sharpens the memories
Random stills from history
Retained by each of us
Moments of seeming unimportance
Kept close and made perfect.
 
 We are alone with our thoughts
In all the times we have ever known.
 
IEW November 2009.

Her funeral is at Gorleston Crematorium in Great Yarmouth on Tuesday 1st December. The request is for colours and smiles – Gillian and I shall do our very best.

Pushing Film : Ilford HP5+ in Xtol @1600

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on November 23, 2009 by yammerman

I’ve had disappointing results pushing film, always seeming to get far more grain than is permissible or desirable. Recently while trawling through some forum somewhere I’d noticed someone singing the praises of Xtol and decided to give it a try.  I’ve had a roll of HP5+ sitting on the shelf for a while that I’d shot at 1600 with my Nikon N80, so I quickly shot another using the Leica M3 amd Canon 50mm combo mixed up the medicine.

Xtol is a two part powder developer so you need a bucket if you’re going to do five litres. I also have 4 clear glass bottles with stoppers from IKEA to store the made up solution. I did have five but shoved one under the tap too hard and broke the damn thing. I think these storage bottles are supposed to be brown but mine are in a dark cupboard anyway and thus far I have had no problems. I usually dilute it one to one after mixing and found the time quoted online always a tad excessive for my tastes so generally I knock of 20% and am much happier with the results. The Massive Dev Chart suggests 18mins for 1:1 dilution at 20 degrees for Hp5+ pushed to 1600, so at 23 degrees factoring in my reduced time, I went for 11 min’s.  There are some very fastidious people in the world of darkrooms and much as I like to be one I can’t be like that. Old Ansel Adams would kill me but there seems so many variables involved that ball park figures will do fine for the kind of work I’m knocking out. Anyway I’ve not forgiven Ansel for his treatment of William Mortensen but that’s a whole other blog.

 Nothing very exciting on the rolls but I do think the grain has improved from previous efforts. I went in the darkroom and printed some up at the weekend and thought some better pictures than I had taken wouldn’t look half bad. It seems to be that for the winter months on dull days this might not be bad way to shoot, as once you factor in a filter, 1600 isn’t a bad speed to be using. The scans don’t look as good as the prints but I think they still show that the grain is not too harsh.

Anyway my brother has been demanding cat pictures so I finally find myself in position to deliver at least one. It seems I’m at a ”three shots acceptable” per a roll stage with film at the moment so only these six made to the final cut.

Stupid Dull Crap Meaningless Pictures with a Leica M3 and Canon 50mm f1.4 LTM

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , on November 22, 2009 by yammerman

 

It is one of life’s coincidences that, in the week that my good friend Bob Machin should mount a “stupid dull crap meaningless”  tirade against a picture by Sara Ramos featured in the Guardian’s best shot series, I was sorting through some test shots I took using a Canon 50mm 1.4 LTM that fitted his description well.  I bought this lens a couple of weeks ago from Vintage & Classic Cameras as a cheaper alternative to the Leica 50mm Summilux  which is way out of my price range.  To test it one Sunday, I decided to suggest a family walk; I believe another pet hate of Bob’s, but he has so many it is sometimes difficult to keep track.  Naturally the suggestion was met with indifference by the rest of the family, no doubt feeling they would rather enjoy the silence in my absence as the Sunday afternoon guitar practice would cease during my sojourn.  I set out on the same imaginary dog walk that I have done for many a month now, armed with my Leica M3 and the Canon 50mm.  I go down the hill to the seafront and perambulate on one of the finest aspects of Penarth, its wonderful pier.  I’ve taken hundreds of pictures of this pier and some I like and some I hate, but it often affords a good place to just fire off some test shots and complete a roll of film.  There was a Penarth Pier photo competition last year which, due to indolence, I failed to enter.  I have to say that when I saw the dramatic nature of the winner – lighting striking the pier in darkness – it was probably as well I didn’t make the effort.   Hats off to the guy, but the idea of setting off in a storm, in the dark, on the off chance of capturing something like that,  as those closest to me will attest, is simply not in my laidback, naturally lazy nature.   A slow Sunday afternoon stroll taking pictures of things that don’t move, or as Bob so succinctly put it “stupid dull  crap meaningless pictures”, now that’s right up my street.

I shot two rolls on Fuji Reala 100 of which I have a ton because I found it very cheap.  It has a rather naturalistic look, which I’ve yet to decide upon, but its slowness engenders clarity.  The decline of film means Tesco no longer process, so Davis Colour did me 72 5×7’s of which 60 constituted what could loosely be called landscapes.  Now these are the ones that for me are the true crap, because you look through them and wonder what on earth it was that you saw through the view finder that made you press the shutter.  I guess it’s just not my thing because the ones that please me are always the more abstract odd ones that nearly don’t work but at least are not a dull travesty of  life’s reality.  So I’ve selected my favourites and they are to be found below.

What can I say about the lens?  It’s well made and certainly sharp.  It has good colour rendition at least with the Reala.  It balances well on the M3 and gives me that extra stop for those low light moments.  I’m not a big tester of stuff in the technical way that some people are; if it feels comfortable, and I like the photos, then I don’t need much more info than that.  I have shot some black and white photos that I processed last night so I’ll post them up when the mood strikes.

I should also mention Paul Williams who has set up a little competition on his blog, inspired by Bob’s words, and which can be found here.  I’ve already entered one of these from below, with a small explanation of my thoughts.  I started writing it with my tongue in my cheek, only to discover that I found some merit in my own pretentiousness.  The years I’ve spent being taught by the graduates of Newport School of Art, Media and Design are paying off, either that or I’ve been indoctrinated.  It is certainly true that while I don’t think the actual pictures I take have changed so much, the way I think about them has changed enormously.  Teaching, the internet and practice have meant I can really nail those stupid dull meaningless pictures these days and, who knows, maybe even I have an exhibition in me.

Royal Photo Shoot with Pentax 6×7 + 135mm Macro and Tubes

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on November 19, 2009 by yammerman

 

Sometime in the summer after I acquired a Bronica SQA I decided it was time to sell my old Pentax 6×7 and the lenses I’d used with it. One of these was the Pentax 135mm f4 Macro lens which I tried a few times with some extension tubes I picked up cheap. In order to test the camera I decided it was best shoot off a quick roll to check it was all working correctly. I shot a roll of Konica Minolta Centuria Pro400  which seems to to have punchy colours and was very cheap.

My son has a collection of figures that I occasionally use as subject matter but never very seriously. This time I set up a couple of lights round a small fold out studio I had and using the 135mm macro and a couple of extension tubes and  took a series of portraits. I liked what I was seeing through the lens and thought there might be a project in this at some later stage. Naturally I completely forgot about this as I moved on to some other idea in my rather haphazard way. The roll of film has been sitting on the shelf unprocessed for an age and it was only because my local Tesco’s have stopped processing 35mm film that I was forced to visit Davis Colour who I’ve used in the past for my colour medium format projects. As it’s a pro lab I always worry that my rather slap dash approach to shooting might betray me. But when I saw the contact sheet of these and the vivid colours I realised that it didn’t matter what they thought as I really liked them.

 This is the closest I’m going to get to Royal photography and perhaps now I can exchange lighting tips with Annie Leibovitz and show her how to have total control of your subject and avoid all that storming out business. Maybe I’m to photography what the guy in Flight of the Phoenix is to airplane building…… so your majesty if you’re reading this I’m ready for the gig if you need me.

This is all  ten images from the roll.

Bessa R2a on Jersey using Ilford HP5+ in Xtol.

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on November 8, 2009 by yammerman

Pot and Glass

I shot 5 rolls of Ilford HP5+ on Jersey and already had two rolls sitting waiting to be developed so I decided to use up some of the Xtol I bought cheap at Warehouse Express.

I found this tames the grain a little when using HP5 especially when shooting at 1600. These were all at 400  so I used Xtol 1+1 @22degrees for 8.5 minutes with one inversion every minute. Then scanned  at 1200dpi on an Epson V700  Considering I shot 5 rolls on Jersey I was pretty disappointed with the results although not altogether suprised. Trying to use both film and digital on the family holidays always seems to creat a confusion in my mind. I tend to get into a digital mode and then remember the B&W and shoot rather thoughtlessly to compensate.

This time I took my Bessa R2a , which is my budget access to aperture priority in the rangefinder system, when really I’d love an M7. Its seems a good idea for family holidays when time is at a premium and the targets are genearally moving. Normally I take a 50mm with me, which is why I’ve been favouring the Leica M3 recently and its wonderful viewfinder for the 50mm shooter. This time I thought I’d only take my Leica 35mm Summicron ASPH which on the 0.72 finder of the Bessa gives a larger size view than a 50mm. I thought the wider angle of view might work better with landscapes likely to present themselves on Jersey. It didn’t work out like that as I just ended up missing my fifty and being caught between the digital and film camera debate. I took less stuff with me on this holiday but then regretted some of the choices I’d made. I started to miss the 50mm which I’ve used so much recently, not bringing a zoom or a wide angle just seemed more daft as the holiday progressed. I really missed a zoom at Durrells Wildlife Conservation Trust,  where I had some really clear views of animals actually doing stuff.  I also started to notice how loud the shutter was on the Bessa, an SLR gunshot compared to the whisper of the M3.

Of the shots below the first lot are from Jersey and then at the end theres five from the rolls I shot with the M3 and the Leica 50mm Summicron DR  the very last one is my favourite, of the pot and the glass. Since Malcolm Taylor gave it a service it has out performed everything I use. It could be that it just goes so well with the M3  but some shots taken with it just leap out at me as that one did. Anyway been a bit of nerds post this time round but I’m trying to get through as much recent stuff now those dark Autumn nights are upon us.

See photographs below.

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Love is Stronger or Song in Need of Lead Guitar.

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on November 6, 2009 by yammerman

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I wrote this while sitting at the kitchen table last year  in response to the Mumbai attacks and sent it to my old writing partner Paul Williams from The Airtight Garage.  He knocked some basic chords that I found I could actually play for once and I’ve been working on it on and off for a year. I did most of this the week before we went Jersey and its only now that I’ve listened to in again. I did try and come up with a lead break but never quite hit the spot so the tedious middle can be filled by all you aspiring lead guitar players out there.  Click below to here it in all its glory.

 

  Love is Stronger 

When imagination fails
Hate weighs heavy on the scales
And tries to take the love out of our lives
Men with guns and shadow hearts
Try to tear this world apart
Blind to the beauty all around

Love is stronger
It lasts longer
You can choose to be or not to be.

I don’t believe in God
But I do believe in evil
When a man can take a life without a thought
I never seen perfection
But I  know  a wrong direction
Let fear be defeated by an open mind

When innocence is cast aside
We all have nowhere left to hide
But I don’t believe that love is ever lost
I’d rather trust a hearts that true
And let love defeat the hate in you
You are the no men and you are nothing

IEW  November 2008

Have a good weekend.

Homage to a Tree.

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on November 5, 2009 by yammerman

 

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Suddenly, over night, the landscape can change and so it was last night. I was awoken by Gillian this morning to tell me that “Something had happened in the night”.  I thought briefly that we must have been robbed and imagined my cameras in the swag bag of some rogue. I could tell though, from her expression, that it was not  serious  but  something clearly was amusing her. She reported that the “tree had come down in the night ” and I knew instantly that the old apple tree, that has been my first port of call for testing lenses and camera over the years, had finally given up the ghost.  Did I shed a tear, well no, it is after all only a tree.   But it did signify that the forces of nature had conspired against me in an ongoing domestic battle.

The tree produced apples when we first moved in about 9 years ago but it was already showing signs of decline and under our tutelage this continued.  It produced less and less fruit and was clearly in need of some expert attention.  Now if you’ve ever wondered whether it would be wise to use a tradesman that puts little slips of paper advertising his services through your door, I can assure you it is not.   He came in a white van with all the tools and assured me he knew he could trim the tree back and a “Hey nonny nay there’ll be cider in the spring”.   He called me out when he’d finished and  I thought he had a rather sheepish expression on his face.  The tree looked decimated and frankly for that kind of “napalm” gardening, Gillian usually employees me.  He assured me that come the Spring it would be shooting out all over the place.  Well Spring came and while  the tree did make a valiant attempt to revive, it produced but one small branch that mustered a lone leaf.  The rest might as well have been holding up books for all the life it had in it.

I can hardly remember when this was, but it must have coincided with my interest in photography as it became my first subject on any roll to test a lens or camera.  The life slowly drained from the tree until clearly its purpose had become totally ornamental.  Now I like this and enjoyed its change in colour and the hideous fungi that  grew upon it.  I’ve seen all manner of bird life ruminate in it and watched it glow orange in the evening light.  Gillian, on the other hand, has come to see this aging warrior as an eyesore and has suggested on several occasions that maybe we should have it cut down.  I have pleaded its case,  siting it as a home for many members of the insect community and vital to the food chain.  My suggestion that it served some artistic purpose has been met with snorts of derision and I’m sure Gillian must have put her Dad up to giving me a great big saw last Christmas.

Anyway its rotting must have reached down to its roots because as the cold winds of November blew last night, and we slept soundly in our beds, the tree finally sucumbed to the invitable.  I don’t imagine it fell with a crash but probably fell over slowly and sedately, knowing its time had come. My first thought was I better take some photos and the second I confess was to wonder where that big saw might be.

Anyway here are some of the pictures from over the years including  “Strange Fruit” in my guitar series and  a few photoshoped ones from a digital course at Ffotogallery.  The last three are how it looks now, like a felled beast keen to do its bit to reduce our fuel bill.

Jersey with a Nikon D5000

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on November 3, 2009 by yammerman

Escaped to Jersey for half-term and stayed a small house on St Brelades Bay I took the Nikon D5000 with kit lens as its my holiday small digital camera of choice these days . The weather was ridiculously good and Jersey is pleasantly uncrowded at this time of year.  Here’s a selection with maybe some B&W later.

Darkroom Experiments with Sepia and Gold Toning

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on October 14, 2009 by yammerman

 

I spent yesterday  toning some pictures with a technique I  came across in The Master Printer’s Workbook by Steve Macleod.  He calls it  ”varaiable sepia”  or indirect thiocarbamide toning.  It involves a two bath process of bleach and then toning. The bleach is potassium bromide and potassium ferricyanide and the toner  a combination of sodium hydroxide and thiocarbamide. The toning dilutions are mixed at various ratios to gain different effects; I chose a warm brown. I also consulted the wonderful The Photgraphers Toning Book by Tim Rudman who also has a section on this technique and mentions split toning it with gold toner. It so happened I had a bottle sitting on the shelf and decided to try that as well.

A few weeks back I’d started with some 8×10’s  on various types of paper but mostly Ilford Warmtone both on fibre and resin coated. Recently I have been taking large format macro shots in the garden and had some 12×16 I’d printed on Kentmere Glossy Fibre which I’d also thought to tone . Part of the reason for my interest in this is the photograph as an object, I like to hold something I’ve made and pretend I’m a craftsman. The irony of then photographing the results and putting them online is not entirely rational but LF macro is already a pretty insane act to start with.

The first experiments  were taken with a Leica MP + 35mm ASPH Summicron on AGFA APX100 and processed in home mixed D23. The ones on the left are on Ilford Warmtone Gloss and the two on the  right are Ilford Warmtone Fibre (semi gloss I think). I was getting used to the actions of the bleach and the correct dilutions on these but despite my mishaps I liked the tones I was getting.  I wash the prints first, drop in the bleach until I like the change enough then wash away the yellow  bleach and wash in water for 5 mins. Then  place them in the toner until the desired effect is reached. Then wash again  and dry the fibre prints  slowly to avoid the dreaded curling. 

 

After enjoying the results of the 35mm shots, I made some pictures in the garden with my Bronica SQA and Wista VX with a view to toning them.  Shooting in the garden is one of the few consistant things I do but even when I go further  a field I seem happy enough  taking a relatively small area and seeking details that interest me. I moved my Omega 5X4 enlarger out of the darkroom and made the  larger attic space light tight so I could raise the head higher and make larger prints. I’m only allowing a 1/4 inch border as on 12×16 paper so the 5X4 negs come into their own. With  the Bronica 6X6 negs  I’m struggling to decide on the size of the actual print, 10×10 seems to waste a lot of 12×16 paper. How come no one makes square paper for these square negs?

With these larger ones I used slighly less thiocarbamide and achieved a browner toner. They did all go into into the gold toner but I didn’t notice any great colour shift. Gold toner does offer archival properties and I think it added to the contrast a touch. The results above are mostly on double weight Kentmere Fibre Glossy ( the 5×4’s) which seems to flatten better than previous papers I’ve tried, this could also be due to my improving technique.  The Bronica SQA are on Ilford Fibre Glossy which seemed more resistant to toning.  I am though plagued by dust or marks on the negative. I’m not sure why at the moment. I’ll just keep on trying to up the quality but my sloppiness seems untameable. I should try and make a virtue of it like Sally Mann’s wet plate work with brush stokes splodges and specks a plenty. I’d also like to leave the confines of the garden now as my 5×4 technique has improved but man its a heavy thing to lug about. I can’t see me moving too far from the car.

In order to get them online I couldn’t scan the larger ones so I photographed them with a Nikon D5000 + 35mm  which introduces a load of extra problems like white balance, reflections, ripples in paper etc but the beauty of the digital world is that “spotting” is so damn easy.  With a view to the future I recently sent the shot below from the  Bronica SQA series to Photobox  online and got a very fine photograph back but it didn’t give me the same thrill. So for now I carry on with this rather beautiful agony of a process in the hope that the more I do it the better I’ll get…history suggests I’m in for a long wait. 

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The Light – A Punk Folk Song

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on October 12, 2009 by yammerman

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Jeez I’ve been getting fed up about not finishing anything recently so, on a wet Sunday when I started this, I imagined it ending up on the cutting room floor with all the rest. Started as a completely different song called “King of the Hips ” but the words were frankly a bit crap. So having spent a few hours building a frame work of drum and bass it seemed daft to waste it so I trawled through my old musing that had never found some chords and liked the first verse  well enough to pursue it.  It didn’t have a chorus (and some may feel it still doesn’t) and the later verses needed beating into shape but I’ve always enjoyed songs with a story so I continued.  Thought about sticking to just the three verses which is usually the limit of my creative spark but thought, sod it, I’ve written them so I’ll keep them all.

My snail like progression as a guitar player continues and a bit of fuzz always goes a long way to covering the odd defficiency. Improvisation is still a little way off but the robotic nature of my playing rather matches the mood.

The Light  a song about love death and revolution.

 

The Light

 Naïve country boy got himself an education
Hoped to move on up to a better situation.
Found a world of wonder and lost all his illusions
Changed his sad demeanour for some brand new confusions
 
Better watch out when the light shines in their eyes.
 
It was like a new religion coursing through his vein
Suddenly all the answers were shooting through his brain
He had the perfect idea of how it all should be
An end to the misery and the world could be free.
 
Better watch out when the light shines in their eyes.
 
So he formed a party to put the world to rights
With his loyal followers they reached for the heights
But as they grew more popular he noticed a change
Power turned their heads and people acted strange
 
Better watch out when the light shines in their eyes.
 
 
Too late he came to realise his party wasn’t true
His dream of revolution had become a wrecking crew
Suddenly they were saying this is for the best
There was a bang at the door and an order to get dressed
 
Better watch out when the light shines in their eyes.
 
Now he’s in a prison cell, the gallows in the yard
A letter to his family, a cigarette from a guard
Denounced by his comrades lined up in rows
In uniforms of terror as his eyes begin to close.
 
Better watch out when the light shines in their eyes.
 
 
Ian Willson           Oct 2009